Every single one of us wants to fit in. Maybe not necessarily into those skinny jeans that no longer zip up but to fit in with everyone. We all have our ideal “image” of ourself and who we should be. Heck, society has put the pressure on each of us to have the perfect job, body, haircut, family, friends, ect. but the reality is that this just isn’t how life is. We all fall short. We all mess up. We all have to push ourselves to become better people each and every day.
I think that the biggest problem with anyone’s weight loss journey is that they have this “image” of what they are supposed to look like in the end. For me, I’ve always have struggled with my weight. I’ve never been “fat” or anything like that but I also wouldn’t say that I’m the skinniest girl in the world. In high school, I ranged from 125 to 150 lbs and after I graduated I gained a good twenty pounds from the stress my parents getting divorced and college. I’ve come a long way the pass couple of years and I still have some toning up to do but I’m not nearly as out of shape as I was before I served a mission for the church I belong to.
I think the biggest reason why I’ve always struggled with my weight is because I’ve never really enjoyed exercise until now. I eat pretty healthy (I am totally guilty when it comes to frozen yogurt runs or having a two slices of pizza) on a regular basis but when it comes to exercise . . . I struggle. I don’t like being around people because I feel so self-conscious about how silly I look and I’ve never really enjoyed feeling sweaty and gross. But then again, who does?!
Anyway, the past five months, I’ve put on a little weight (that’s a good thing because all I lost was sick weight) and I’ve started going to the gym on a regular basis. It’s been quiet the adventure because I always feel so self-conscious at the gym. It’s not so much because of how I look but it’s how little I can either lift or run or whatever. My endurance is still building up but it’s coming along. I’ve made it a goal this summer to go to the gym or exercise every single day. I haven’t done that every day (I’ve gone to the gym twice this week!) but I am determined to make it a habit because my health is everything.
I want to be healthy and active for my future family. I want to look good in cute clothes. But more than that, I just want to feel healthy and good about myself. It’s not so much about being a size 2 or 4 or even rocking skinny jeans. It’s about being toned and healthy. It’s about being happy about where I’m at in life. It’s being happy with who I am. So, come join me in my annotated journey of health and losing weight!