“Stop seeking out the storms and enjoy more fully the sunlight.”
My life has been pure chaos for the past month and a half. Moving, homework, work, friends, family, church, sleep, eat, repeat. It’s been a non-stop go, go, go. I honestly can say that I will be so relieved once this week is over. The move will have happened and “Plan B” will officially start (well, this one is more like Plan Y). As the past couple of weeks have been super nuts, it’s made me really think about what matters the most to me.
Obviously, my family and friends are important to me. So is staying close to Heavenly Father and the Savior. But what really struck me these past couple of weeks is how I get super prideful and pull away from Him when the “goin’ get’s tough.” As much as I hate admitting this, I am one of those people who doesn’t like getting help from others. I’m stubborn. I refuse to ask for help and I refuse to admit that I need it. It’s not good; I need to get over myself and change. And lately, that’s what I’ve really been trying to do.
On my mission, I had a major spiritual speed-slap-in-the-face (you know, the ones that really hurt and make you wanna cry) and realized that I can’t pull away from Heavenly Father because I need Him EVERY single day. I need Him just as much as I need oxygen–if not more. Although my mission was incredible, it was so hard. I really had to learn how to put my faith and trust in God. Believe it or not, but being away from your family for 18-24 months (well, in my case 12 months) and talking to them only once a week via email, having zero internet privileges except for church sponsored websites (like Mormon.org and LDS.org), and talking to every one that you see isn’t as easy as it sounds. It was hard. It was terrifying. It pushed me to my limits and I seriously thought that some days would never end. But you know what? It was worth every second.
Because I learned that in those desperate times of need that I have a Heavenly Father who loves me and will not abandon me. I learned how to trust my Savior and Heavenly Father. I learned how to really endure to the end. I learned what it means to give everything to God and let Him take care of the rest.
Today while I was at church, I had floods of memories from my mission hit me like a ton of bricks. All of them were stories about people who had literally nothing yet still trusted in God. They prayed like none-other when things were hard. They trusted Him to take care of them. They believed the Atonement. They studied the scriptures. They gave everything to God.
But, me? I’m over here being super stubborn and making things harder on myself when it doesn’t have to be this hard. Honestly, I’m such a knuckle-head sometimes (not always…but still). Anyway, one of my favorite scriptures from the Book of Mormon is in Alma 37:37. It says,
“Counsel with the Lord in all they doings, and He will direct thee for good; yea, when thou liest down at night lie down unto the Lord, that He may watch over you in your sleep; and when thou rises in the morning let thy heart be full of thanks unto God; and if ye do these things, ye shall be lifted up at the last day.” -Alma 37:37
If we just put our faith and trust in Him 100%, He will take care of us. If we give Him our faith when we need Him the most, He’ll make our burdens lighter. I love knowing that. It brings so much peace and comfort to me. I know that as I try harder to be more like Christ and as each of us give our will to Him, He will make the difference. I’ve seen it so many times in my life. I’ve seen it so many times in other people’s lives. I know that it will happen. I know that with all my heart. I know that if we let everything go, He’ll get us through it. He’ll wrap His arms around you and whisper, “It’s gonna be okay.”
When have you felt His arms around you?