For those of you who have been following my blogging journey over the past ten years (yes, it’s been ten years! Can you believe that?!) you’ll know that I’ve blogged on a large variety of topics. I’ve talked about college, my day to day life, health problems, fitness goals, random things on my mind, and so many more things.
I think that my blog has just been a space for me to just word-throw up everything that I want to remember or vent about or document. I think it’s important to look back at all of the times in your life and recall how you got to where you are today. I’m not saying that I live in the past and am constantly looking back. I just enjoy remembering the memories I’ve made, and the things I’ve overcome.
Looking back, I’ve haven’t been blogging consistently for various reasons over these last six months. I’d be lying if I said that these past six months haven’t been full of ups and downs and all sorts of crazy chaos that I wasn’t expecting. But I am so grateful to be where I am today. I’m grateful that I have my husband and that we’re working towards and living our dream of building an incredible life. I know that I’ll get caught up in sharing what has been going on, but for now I wanted to talk about where I’m going to be taking my blog this year.
This past year, I’ve listened to a particular book a few times. I’ve also read it a few times. I’ve also given a few copies out to friends because it’s that good. If you haven’t gotten your hands on “Girl, Stop Apologizing” by Rachel Hollis then you need to. If you’re clueless on who Rachel Hollis is . . . please, stop reading my blog and go Google her! Your life is about to be changed.
I’m all for the self-help, self-motivating, and self-improvement books. I think they are incredible. I think they are uplifting and motivating. I think that the do change lives. I just love them. There’s no other way of putting it. Rachel’s book is one of those books that digs deep and is so eye opening. It literally motivated me to start making some major changes in my life.
It’s been no secret. I’ve put on about 35 (maybe even 40) lbs the past couple of years. My health has been out of wack and it’s been an uphill battle. I’ve lost a lot of motivation trying to stay healthy, and strictly be gluten & dairy free. It can been very daunting sometimes going grocery shopping when you have a limited budget.
But after reading this book several times, and really digging deep I’ve realized again and again that it’s time to pick up my broken crayons and find a new way to color. It’s time to stop making apologizes for having the health problems that I have. It’s time to embrace the challenge, and find a way back to a healthy lifestyle so that I can live a long life.
Fibromyalgia is a neurological disease that impacts the central nervous system. Your central nervous system is constantly sending pain signals to all of your body thinking that it’s in pain when really it’s just overactive. The migraines, swelling in my hands and feet, and chronic pain make it sometimes impossible to walk around and live a normal life. And let’s not forget about the fatigue–Waking up feeling like you didn’t sleep just isn’t cool.. This usually results in lots of rest, Netflix-ing, and water. Lots of water.
My battle with my health is forever going to be an on-going one. But I try to look at it as an opportunity. It’s an opportunity to learn how to cook unique things. It’s an opportunity to learn when to say no. It’s an opportunity to learn how to manage chronic pain in a healthy way. I’m grateful that I get to share what I’ve learned over the years, and how I’ve managed it. I’ve grateful that I get to share what doesn’t work and what makes it worst. Not everyone gets an opportunity to share this kind of story.
In “Girl, Stop Apologizing” a huge theme throughout the book is believing that you are meant to be YOU and no one else. You are meant to believe that you are capable of amazing things and that you don’t have to apologize for who you are. That’s something that I’ve really struggle with over the years. It’s hard having to re-explain again, and again my health problems because on the outside, I don’t look sick. #InvisibleIllnessIsReal
Despite having Fibromyalgia, I believe that I am capable of living a full life. I believe that I am capable of getting my health back under control. I also believe that it’s time to give myself permission to move forward with it. It’s been a hard, long road with getting here. It’s been a road full of doubt, and lots of tears. But I’m done fighting for a healthy body that I’m never going to have. I’m done lying to myself that I can have a cheat meal every now and then and that it won’t significantly impact my health. I’m done feeling guilty about saying no to eating certain things at gatherings because it will cause my Fibromyalgia to flare up. I’m done giving up on my health.
So . . . what does this mean for my blog?
You may recall that at one point all I used to blog about was my health, food recipes, and fitness (that blog was hacked into and I never recovered all of the files). I am going to start blogging more and more about living a healthy lifestyle and how I manage my health. I’m going to do my very best to make sure that it doesn’t overpower my blog because I do want to keep the focus on Dale and I. But at the same time so much our lives and decisions revolve around my health.
I’ll do my best to balance the posts out because I don’t want my blog to be strictly a health blog. I want it to be a lifestyle blog about how I live my life to the fullest with Fibromyalgia. I hope that you’ll stay around for the ride. It’s going to be a wild one!